by: Chelsie Miles
(founder of CannaCook Inc // CannaCook.com)
My story is something I don’t normally share. It’s not that I am ashamed or embarrassed by my past, It’s just that I don’t like talking about myself. I see how people judge each other, so I always kept my mouth shut. My amazing husband convinced me it would be good to share it, cathartic to get things off my chest. So I thought it would share my journey, and how I ended up where I am today.
I had amazing childhood with wonderful parents. They were involved in everything in my life and I loved it. I had a great home life, I loved school and played lots of sports. I was a happy child.
I have always been a little shy, even though you would never know it. I was always great at pretending. Pretending that I was confident, that I had it all together. Pretending that I was outgoing and fun. in reality I was struggling mentally. I never told anyone, not even my family. I instead turned to using drugs and alcohol.
When I was younger, I was diagnosed with ADHD, in high school it didn’t cause learning issues or behavioral issues. Once I graduated and went to college I was having a terribly hard time. I have OCD also and between those two I had trouble trying to learn and focus during classes at college. In high school I was able to go to class, not study, and still pass and get good grades. College was totally different and I felt like a fish out of water. I would get really upset with myself because everyone else seemed to make it look so easy. Most people would double down and try harder when they were really struggling . I ended up throwing it away. I started skipping school, and using drugs.
At first it was exciting and new. I had never tried drugs before, and it was honestly fun Back then, people didn’t talk about how addictive narcotics were. As stupid as it may sound, I honestly had no clue how addictive it was. I just thought I was having fun on weekends in college, like everyone else. unlike everyone else, I wasn’t able to just use recreational. For me it turned into an addiction. Eventually My whole day would be consumed with getting more pills so that I could feel better and function.
I met Chris when I was 18, he was 17. We were young, in love and crazy.
Chris and I ended up moving in together when I was 18. We partied… a lot. At age 20 we were making 6 figures between us, and most of that money went to buying drugs and partying. I kept a job at a bank, and thankfully never ended up in jail.
We stayed together until we were 22 and he went off to rehab. Looking back I should have gone myself, but I didn’t. I was to scared to ask for help. I was scared to admit that I had an issue. Scared to admit That I couldn’t get myself under control.
Eventually I got clean, but would constantly mess up. I would stay away from drugs and go right back to them. It was always narcotics that pulled me back in. I finally got fully clean and got married.
I ended up getting a divorce in 2015 and started drinking. I went from a structured life, and a corporate job I loved, to running away from my hometown because I thought that was my only option. I ended up staying away for six or seven months and got into drinking even heavier. Since being diagnosed with ADHD, I had been taking medication for it. I helped me feel “normal.” I was able to focus on my work, finish my tasks, and honestly just feel like a normal person. I got so sick of the constant running thoughts, this medication helped that and helped calm my OCD. Throughout the years I took the medication appropriately, it honestly helped me. However, when I started drinking I stopped taking my medication how I should have. I would take double the dose just to wake myself up in the morning, since I was staying up all night drinking. I would take uppers during the day to get going and drink all night to get to sleep. My heavy drinking continued for a year and a half.
When Chris and I got back together he was in recovery and I was secretly drinking. He was the one who opened my eyes and helped me realize I actually did have a drinking problem. Before that, I thought it was normal to drink all evening. I mean I saw other adults, friends, and co-workers around me drinking a ton, so I thought there was no issue.
I will be forever thankful that Chris helped me realize my drinking was an issue. If he didn’t, I would still probably be doing it today.
This week it has been 4 years since I have been clean, and because of it My life is better than I could have ever imaged.
Right before cannabis became legal in Arkansas Chris said he wanted get off his psychotropic medications and use cannabis medically. I was so upset and scared. I was worried he was going to abuse it and just use it to get high. I was worried about myself getting back into drugs. However, After he got his card and started using it, I saw how much it improved his life. he was happier and healthier, and it opened my eyes to how cannabis actually is a medicine. He used it appropriately, and it really helped me realize that cannabis wasn’t something bad and scary. In fact it was something that could change people’s life for the better. I had a lot of things I thought cannabis might help, so I ended to getting my card. Chris started ARK420, and then we decided to start CannaCook. I remember being so scared trying to lean to cook with cannabis. I thought it would be something seriously difficult! I soon realized how easy it was, and how much it helped myself and others around me. I have always been someone who loves to teach people and help as many as I can.
I wanted to show people different ways to use their medication, to improve their quality of life. I want to show everyone that you don’t have to be a professional chef, or have training to be able to cook with cannabis. I want to give a platform to others, and let people have a place to show off their amazing cooking and teach others their recipes. Cannacook is the answer to all of those wants. I am proud to be where I am today. I went though a lot of hard times, and a lot of struggles that I might share one day. Until then just know whatever you are going through, your not alone. Work on yourself and the hard work always pays off.
Founder of CannaCook Inc and CannaCook.com